by Chief / Monday, 16 November 2015 / Published in Uncategorized

don-headshotIt was November of 1971 that Jesus turned my life upside down. Since then, I have struggled, rejoiced, learned and unlearned, believed and hoped, doubted and was afraid. I have been disappointed and I have been a disappointment. I have been on top of the world and in the lowest gutters of life. I have prayed and have been afraid to pray. I have been rebuked countless times, rejected by man and dismembered by his ruthless words. I have been alone, broke, afraid and hopeless…all this after Jesus turned my life around in 1971. But in all these circumstances I have learned His great love for me. I have discovered that God’s grace floods the heart of true repentance. His love breaks the barriers of offense, hate, revenge and pain. Troubles were the impetus for me to go on, the fuel to launch me to higher places in Christ Jesus, the absolute necessity to tear down the cocky, prideful, often nasty side of me that thought that I was all that. Brokenness became my best friend, disillusionment my worst enemy. Some days I was sure I could do anything. Other days I hid myself in a corner of my room. But after all these years, I have learned that what-ought-to-be really CAN be and if I cooperate with God, surrender to His wisdom. I am what I am, if I am anything, by the grace of God. I have made the painful but oh, so liberating discovery that He must increase and I must, absolutely, completely, daily, quickly decrease. I have discovered God as my Savior, my Lord, my King, my Master and my Captain. But I cherish Him most as simply my Friend who is always within me. He never quit on me; never gave up, never condemned, never abandoned me even when I abandoned myself! He is the lover of my soul and the Salvation in which I hope everyday. After all this, I am still needy. I am nothing without Him. He has been, now is and always be the best thing that ever happened to me. My dearest Jesus, without you I am nothing. I surrender.
Today, If you…